I’m in deep with a man who doesn’t treat me nicely. I know it’s stupid so you can all hold your judgmental comments. I’m just trying to get this feeling off my chest. We were together for years but more recently we’ve spend many weeks without contact. It always ends with him flipping out at me or saying something awful which crushes me. I curse his name and we leave on terrible terms. I try to call him out but he only tells me I’m crazy and doing what he’s doing to me, to him. I spend all day trying to figure out how to get him to like me for who I am. He won’t so it’s pointless. I stay home on the weekends and do creative projects and rearrange my furniture to pass the time but every night I go to sleep and wonder why he isn’t lying next to me. He’s perfect in his insanity and I accept him for who he is but he doesn’t do the same for me. It’s his mean spirit that I just can’t tolerate. I have to move on but it is so hard because when things are good I’m the happiest I’ve ever been. Nothing lasts forever I guess. It’s much more complicated than what I’ve said here so please keep that in mind before posting horrible comments. Thanks.