it's imaginary in your head. that's all.

he's a memory. he was a person someway in your life. someone who's time is gone. nothing lasts forever. remember the good.

by complete chance I learned he had committed suicide
I had no feelings for him
But felt really terrible for his children

It’s strange to know that someone we once were friends/ close to has passed and we didn’t know. It happened to me this year- I found out about a friend from the past passing but no one told me until 3 months after the funeral. I felt very angry that I didn’t have a chance to attend the funeral...oh well - I guess what matters now are the memories of hanging out with that friend and the good times we had.

Best wishes dealing with this- it’s okay if it takes a while to process. Death can bring about unexpected emotions. Take care of yourself in the meantime xo

Oh man! This happened to me too. I had not seen any posts about my buddy on Facebook in a while so I went on his wall. And I see someone post I miss you so much. It did not click right away then another post about his memorial. I was shocked! Why did no one tell me? It was a year later. I messaged 3 people about it who had gone to the funeral and why did no one tell me. 2 people did not respond. Another woman apologized for not calling me. I was so sad. I really regret not going to that funeral.