Puppy love

I discovered my diaries from Grade 12. I read about the first time I fell in love. We knew eachother 4 days before saying ILU. FOUR days. From my entries, I now understand why I have dating anxiety and abandonment issues. I wish I could go back and tell my sweet innocent self to leave that guy who clearly was treating her like crap. The same experience seemed to groundhog for the next guy. Now that I am in my 40s, I think I now understand how to identify these broken guys and avoid them!! Here is to no more broken hearts

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Cheers

Sep 16, 2019 at 11:50am

I can toast to that one as well!
Too confident, caring, patient, trusting, happy, funny people!
All were really have is time.
Make the most of it:)

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Reality Check

Sep 16, 2019 at 12:45pm

Everyone is broken in some form, or another. Some are just better at hiding it than others. You're not any exception.

Puppy love is a must.

Sep 16, 2019 at 4:18pm

We live and are in grained string like at the quantum level trapped in an inescapable duality. You can not know blank, until blanks opposite is also in the awareness spectrum. So powerful real true adult love has no chance until young dumb( scratch that) learning, growing and living us has these beautiful hickups along the way. I say beautiful because, they truly are. I'm who I am today because of my who I was yesterday. Today I think sure, I'm broken still, of course I am I allowed alot of emotional experiences to become mine by accepting, completely giving of myself before making sure this person could handle the experience. In all fairness I went too far for anyone in some. So no more of that, I just give less trust until it is broken or proven worthy, just not going to be like my new friend here's my balls, heart, car, house and every account number you could possibly need. I go more like hi I'm blank I'd like to get to know you. And pray for the best, while somewhat planning for the worst. It's just silly to think that with all the lack of true understanding around a charged atomic orbital like love, that we can trust everyone. I'd say you'd be hard pressed to find anyone most groups, who would get it and respect it. So kid gloves and a radiation suit.

Dog

Sep 16, 2019 at 8:35pm

I love me some puppies (though I'm picky about breeds). Humans, not so much.
People suck. Few exceptions.
For years, your "partner" or "friend" will treat you like a burden and take you for granted. Then one day, you're done, and they're suddenly all about working it out or going to therapy.
Nope. That's some seriously negative social capital they've got there. A durable, long-term investment of time and effort, spent neglecting, alienating and mistreating someone they supposedly treasure, or even love.
The sunk cost fallacy is very real. But it's easily beaten by The First Rule of Holes: when you wind up in the hole, stop digging and get out.
Walk away. Doesn't matter if there's anyone out there for you. If you stay, you already know what you'll be getting (a lot more of), that you didn't want.

So simple that it's too obvious, even invisible. You can only see it in retrospect.
Like in a diary, for example.

Love does not exist

Sep 18, 2019 at 9:34pm

You can give and give and give
And some people just take take take
Love yourself
Run away
Theres nothing anymore
There never was anything but lies and deception and hurt and betrail. From everyone.
Never trust again.
Your turn to be free
Watch your own back
Make yourself happy.
No one truly Cares!
So care about yourself, You deserve to be whatever the hell you desire!!!

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@love doesnt exist

Sep 20, 2019 at 1:52am

Sweetheat it does and I can prove it!
Just give someone a chance.
Be Brave one more time!

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