There are some confessions on this page that are gut wrenching. The pain people endure is amazing. I have great sympathy for them while i'm reading them. On another hand though, I can't help but think that we each choose our lives. Yes, we all suffer to some degree in our lives and that suffering can cause life long drama, yes, yes. BUT we ALL get to choose what we do, and how we live our lives. It's no one else fault if you do not have zen. I woke up early Saturday. lay in bed day dreaming for a few hours about life, my past/furture etc. and now I'm here quietly drinking a coffee in peace. Because I choose to have this lifestyle I'm more content than I think I've ever been. But I choose it, by not having crazy people in my life. Choosing to spend more time on/with myself more than anyone else. You can do it to, you just have to want it.