Want to leave

I'm so stuck. Recently married but my spouse and I haven't talked in weeks. Think we made a mistake. Work has been so overwhelming: too busy and i'm expected to do things i've never done without any direction or help. Started regularly crying at work. Trying to find a place to live that I can afford and that I don't have to share and that is still in vancouver. On top of it trying to keep my anger in check as the wealthy shit all over this city and the people struggling to live here. Now i'm getting suicidal thoughts more often and just want to get away. Either move somewhere without telling anyone where or just fucking kill myself. I don't know. It's all too heavy, I can't breathe.

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Someone who’s been there

Nov 16, 2019 at 8:08pm

I’m sorry you feel stuck. Before I got divorced I made sure to try counselling so I knew in my heart it would be the right decision to leave if it didn’t work out. Perhaps give that a try? As for your mental health talk to someone a dr, friend anyone you aren’t alone in how you feel, I hope that putting this out there gave you some relief and that you find comfort in this comment and any others but please know things will get better. Sending love and positive vibes your way

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Damn!

Nov 16, 2019 at 8:57pm

I feel your tension. Take a deep breath and relax. You have options. Life isn't over. Start with finding a place to stay, or a friend to stay with. Get your head straight then take the next step. Don't despair - it'll get better. Trust me.

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I hope it all gets better soon

Nov 16, 2019 at 11:08pm

I hope you find the help you need.
You have to go through this whether you get help or not. And having no support is the worst way to go through things.
Seek out someone professional to vent your frustrations to.
Talking it out to a hired ear is underrated, it could help you sort it out and see things in perspective.

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Yes

Nov 17, 2019 at 2:24am

I’m feeling the same way. I’m so overwhelmed right now, I don’t know what to do either.

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Welcome to partnership

Nov 17, 2019 at 6:51am

The biggest problem right now is that everybody exudes an idea of perfection online with their relationships, jobs, parenting and children.
When the reality is no different than it has ever been. Tiring, stressful, exhausting.
Hugs to you and I hope you pull through however you can.

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Oops

Nov 17, 2019 at 5:14pm

Marriage can be very hard at times. If you’ve only recently done it, maybe instead of running away immediately, you should take a deep breath and stop freaking out. Step back and try to analyze what’s really going on here. At the very least you should try counselling before you throw out your relationship.

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Yeasty Slop Flopper

Nov 18, 2019 at 10:05pm

Me too man.
I'm so depressed. I resort to all sorts of abuse, external and internal. I dream of better days, I just don't know how to start.

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I empathize. I hear you.

Nov 19, 2019 at 7:13am

Hello. My name is val.
Wise mind = using no judgement, sticking to the facts, not enrirely leaving emotions out of it but somewhat.
Emotion mind: opposite of wise mind.
Acting out how you feel.. Controlled or uncontrolled.
You want a balance of both.
You have an example of both.
A: uncontrollable crying spells...
Hence no control.
Biological or chemical factors.. See a GP.
From there get proffessional help via referal to save $. Any help. Group. Mental health. Individual. You cant love another if you cannot love yourself at this moment ok.
I dont mean that in a nasty way. I am saying it because your focused on your marriage. Focus on you. Your job. Your abilities. Your strengths.
Work on your weakness.
I.e. depression. Suicidal thoughts. You may have these from again chemical issues/ biological from stress ok to cope.
Once you seek dr advice.. Feel it out for a few weeks if its meds or therapy. Sit down and think and feel. How do you feel. Really. It is better? Worse?
Once medication or group etc releaves the stress we need to focus on the stressors. Is this job not a fit right now because of mental health issues? Or is this not a fit period.
If its unknown take stress leave if possible to work on yourself meds therapy etc.
FROM there... Your finances are settled or figured out via job, and youve worked on your mental health.
#3 comes the what do we mean as a team. Talk open and honest when youve leveles out your head. Of your thinking of suicide it may be a sign that everyrhing is too much and rhe thought of death beings relief. But why mention divorce if you feel that way.. Its a sure sign your under so much pressure your about to blow.. Remember emotion mind?
Speak to your partner about your good times and then your issues.. Bring a solution to the table not a problem so he feels the light at the end of the tunnel too ok.
Ive been there. I understand. I feel for you. Hang in there. Huggs

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