Sure close and my family is not a word that is in an on point manner. I'm really nervous about being alone with these people. I do not hate or mistrust it's about the awkward. I had a friend we were really close. I fucked not long ago and walked away from her in a baby like tantrum. Now she has either taken the pain of that to a self destructive position she feels she deserves. Or is so sad and unhappy with life, herself, me and all he things that should bring the best. I wish I could ask my friend to be my tag along, but really at this point it's unlikely I can ask her what time it is. Oh be my love or my heart I will never find or get this piece called love right. A curse I must carry by the mark of sadness it creates in me and others.