I confess that older memories

Have been cropping up in my thoughts lately. It wouldn’t be so bad but a lot of the memories are extremely unpleasant and It’s not fun revisiting those times. Stuff I haven’t even remotely thought of for years. I recently switched to a different anti-depressant and I’m not enjoying this peculiar side effect.


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That sounds really intense.

Jan 24, 2020 at 1:30pm

I have been there too. I agree that it can be uncomfortable and unpleasant when past events buried deep in our bones rise to the surface.

Depending on the memory, sometimes it can be helpful to face it, acknowledge it and if possible, release it via your therapy of choice. These memories may be coming up for you to do just that so that you can move forward in life with a lightened load.

Other memories may not be ready for processing yet. It is hard to know what to do with these. I have been storing them in a holding chamber, knowing they are there, but recognizing that I can only sweep and dust around the door for right now.

All the very best, fellow confessor. You'll get through this.


Jan 24, 2020 at 4:35pm

Definitely talk to your doctor, especially as it’s concurrent with a new medication. Good luck!

No one escapes

Jan 25, 2020 at 9:13am

I think that this eventually happens to everyone at some point, regardless of whether they’re on medication or not. The reality is that you can’t ever truly escape from the memories of something that caused trauma. Sooner or later they’re going to surface no matter how well you think you’ve buried them. Sometimes we don’t even recognize that something has affected us so much until that memory comes back years later. An octogenarian relative of mine has begun having nightmares about being sexually assaulted when she was just a little girl. A memory she thought she had dealt with by not thinking about it. So I believe that the only way to deal with the unpleasant stuff is to acknowledge it, face it head-on, and work through it. Otherwise it’s going to continue to haunt you one way or the other.

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