My former husband of 22 years, the father of my 3 children, went back to his highschool girlfriend a few months after he left me. My kids love her, they do family style stuff with him, her & her kids all the time. It's like *we* never existed. And yet I am still alive. This is the kind of thing that would have me suicidal and probably will again. I don't understand how people can treat each other so badly. He always had a thing for her but even I am shocked it has come to this. And her? Her? She was at my wedding. Her ex was my ex's best friend and my daughter's godfather. We planned showers for each other. I cannot believe I am able to wake up every day and live my life with this level of betrayal. I can barely talk to my kids about this. My strength is not what it should be. How am I still alive when others have deemed me this worthless?