I feel terrible about this and I wish it wasn’t something I focus on so much but I can’t help it. I can’t stand the look of fat on the human body. Obviously skin and bones isn’t the best look but I actually like the way that looks compared to any amount of fat. Any lumpy fat or muffin top just looks awful to me. Anytime I see a “curvy” woman on tv or the internet the first thing I think is, ok lose 40lbs and you’d look great. In my mind curvy just means fat and I’m just as critical with my own body and it makes my life hell. I wish I could stop. It just goes to show how conditioned we are by commercials and magazines. I grew up in the 90’s when heroin chic was in fashion and it really messed up my perception of beauty.