You’re not alone! So many of us are also trying to cope with multiple disabilities. It’s so hard getting by in such an expensive place. If it wasn’t for the fact that I was born here 7 decades ago, and all of my family is here, I’d try to leave for somewhere cheaper. Living with a chronic illness of any kind is so hard, and one of the worst aspects is the attitude of people who assume that if you “look fine” you must be fine. I wish people would understand that the majority of disabilities aren’t readily apparent just by looking at someone. And as far as dating goes, it’s hard enough just trying to get through each day, let alone deal with the stress of meeting someone to date. I’ve been single for ages, at at my age I assume that I’ll remain that way forever. I don’t have any helpful suggestions on m afraid, just sending you some virtual moral support.

Listen to Meditational music just before you go to sleep. The way to do this is put the music on, put the lights off and lie down straight on the bed. Fix it in such a way that the music will stop automatically when the track(s) ends, without going into a loop. You'll find your quality of sleep improves enormously and that will have a direct and very positive bearing upon your health. If it doesn't work the first time, change the music and find something which works. If you can't find anything, search for Shiv Stuti from Times Music (India). This technique is very powerful. Hope it helps !

Go volunteer to help other people? You'll feel better,and also network.
Can you walk far,as in get exercise? Or even just go sit in the park?

Going to Central park with peanuts, so the chickadees can land all over me always cheers me up.

Hello there, your story sounds so much like my story. I've recently been thinking why bother try anymore as nothing seems to be changing, very tiring. I don't know if making friends is possible here but I'd love to chat with you on another platform and see if we get along. Either way, perhaps if we stay open to it something will come our way.

Ask your friends to set you up? Give them a list of what you are okay with them sharing about your situation/life/health beforehand, and then ask them to arrange group get togethers. I am the only non-parent in my friend group, and I don't have family. I have made a conscious choice to just be the person who initiates, and to not be pissed off about it. I like to think of it like this: it's an honour to be brave enough to go first. Too many people think it's an insult, or embarrassing. Our society really needs to rethink this attitude.

Totally get it. No better for guys. Few women have time for someone with mental health issues, nobody does. Consider psychedelics also TDCS. Don't give up. Always be willing to think outside the box and try stuff.

Thank you for the kind words and advice.
@ can you, I work pt helping people with disabilities, and with my chronic fatigue and pain, heart issues I have to be careful with physical activity. I've volunteered in different helping posts. My dream is to change the archaic mental health system we have, but it's tough even working....

My heart goes out to the commenters struggling too. The marginalized often suffer the most and the systems in place are failing those that struggle the most....

I wish I knew, for you and for me too.

I just seem too much for everyone. Why do I have to be someone I'm not to be loved. Why is it I can love others and all their problems they don't seem to think they have or project on to me. Why is it I feel so crazy that I will never know how it feels to be touched by a hand that loves me.