Weposted February 27th, 2020 at 7:26 PM It's incredible how deep I can go into my own fantasy world. Lies on top of lies I tell myself (and believe them too) until I can't ignore reality any more and it all comes crashing down. I have a few degrees you know. I should be smarter than this. Show 8 Comments 8 Comments Post a Comment AnonymousFeb 27, 2020 at 10:38pmOh ooh, borderline personality disorder. Have you considered become an actress? A RomanticFeb 28, 2020 at 12:12amYou are not alone. Anxiety has driven me to dwell deeply in the security of my own mind where I softly recite words I wish I had the courage to say aloud to a person I care for. But the longer one stays on the holodeck, the harder it is to function in reality. So, yes, smarten up. The only difference between the fantasy you craft in your mind and the reality you craft in the world is your courage. And on the last of your days on this planet, will you be glad you dwelled in fantasy or will you regret not taking the chance? Get realFeb 28, 2020 at 5:38amYou sound alot like me and need a good old fashioned piece of HUMBLE PIE. I get absolutely fried on weed all day everyday to avoid my stinging reality We all knowFeb 29, 2020 at 10:02amThere are real people on the other end you're pulling into your fabrications who are dealing with the consequences of all your lying. Grow up. Enough is enough. smart does not mean groundedMar 2, 2020 at 9:06amThey are unrelated attributes, alas. @We all nowMar 3, 2020 at 2:53pmThe lies are things I tell myself.Like that my feelings are requited.No one, other than other anonymous readers on here that put themselves into the story are dealing with any consequences.Certainly not the person I cared about (who doesn't care).I get that. I just relapse. @OpMar 4, 2020 at 8:35amI know exactly what you mean. I’m astounded at how long I’ve managed to delude myself about the true nature of a relationship I recently gave up on. I’m considered a very intelligent person, but when it comes to that relationship, I’m an idiot. @@OpMar 7, 2020 at 4:05pmYou suck, there I've said it again is it sinking in yet, fuck I hope so. Gave up on, (not at all because I want to shove you away) but talking about giving up on something is not at all giving up. I would give up if you truly had, why because I'd for sure know you had. At first yup I was convinced your losing that solidified belief in me. Imu fu. Join the Discussion Your name Comment * your name What's your name?