This is difficult

The same night I watched my mother die is also the same night I found out my cousin committed suicide. I feel so gutted. I’m in such disbelief, I just want to be numb. Because of this Covid 19 bs, I can’t check into the emergency for my emotional distress in regards to my traumatic losses, as I’ve done in the past before. I’m trying so bloody hard to stay strong, but I just want to call the dealer buy a bunch of dope and get high. I feel so alone and isolated.

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Online supports

Mar 28, 2020 at 4:00pm

I’m so sorry. There is quite a bit of online counselling available in the city right now, some at no cost.

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Wish you all the best

Mar 28, 2020 at 4:15pm

It sounds really difficult, and it sounds like a very tough time. Love from us all on the confessions.

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Please don't go dopey

Mar 28, 2020 at 5:27pm

I too know grief but all things must pass and there are always better days ahead. Reach out too (.............................. fill in the blank for whatever name us humans come up with to describe the Great Unknown). I ain't got video to prove it but I've had a few little peeks through the inter-dimensional picture and I am very certain that the greater Universe(s) are benevolent and that life is Eternal. This world of hard knocks is just one school along the way ... Walk Good Brothers and Sisters ..." Don't worry bout a thing cuz every little things gunna be alright"

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I hate it

Mar 28, 2020 at 8:01pm

My mother had a heart attack and I'm not allowed to go see her.

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If you have a real emergency like trauma

Mar 28, 2020 at 8:02pm

I think you can still go.

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I can totally relate

Mar 28, 2020 at 8:51pm

as I recently found out I’ve lost two brothers. Now it’s legal, buy some dope as it’ll be awhile before you’ll get better meds from your shrink. It may also be awhile before you get any mental help as it’s been 3 months and I’m still waiting. Hang in there everyone will say; your job figure out which one: sanity, work, daily life, relationships, friendships, religious beliefs. I’m using this pandemic time to reflect on my life thus far and deal with the cards dealt to me along with some extra herbal help. Otherwise reach out to 311, RedBook online, bereavement lines for extra help in case your thoughts go dark. Take care Difficult during this time.

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Anonymous

Mar 28, 2020 at 10:35pm

I'm not sure I understand why you can't go to a hospital. If you need to be there, you need to be there. If you're in City of Vancouver, going to AAC would allow you to avoid the emergency department. I haven't heard anything about any changes to psych because of COVID.

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Crisis line

Mar 29, 2020 at 1:21am

If you have a telephone, can vouch they’re helpful. Take care

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Have no fear

Mar 29, 2020 at 11:21am

for (fill in the blank .......................) nuclear warfare, plague, mass coronal ejection etc etc ... "None but ourselves can free our minds."

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Hey pal

Mar 30, 2020 at 9:32am

That sounds super rough. This shit is hard enough without mountains of grief and loss. I have some similar shit - not the same, just kind of adjacent, and I know I've really had to be soothing and distracting. Reading books helps me a bit, sometimes if I can focus, or playing games... something to take your mind off everything so your system can recover a bit is the idea. Wishing you so much well.

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