Over 2 years, I lost 9 friends to suicides and od's. This was 2016-2018. I have lost a few more, and during covid every family member I know has lost someone they were close with. mine was a heart attack of someone under 40. acute pancreatic cancer was another. stroke was another. od was the other. there's no point to this ramble. there is no soap box. there is no nothing. life is pain. but life goes on. it's all it can do.