Child I talk to much I know this. I get hurt feelings I say silly stupid things, but I hate myself the most for not hearing a friend's words. They may have stepped up big time no I'm sure they did. I just can not remember a fucking word they said, I'm so saddened by their removal from my life. Ive sorted a lot out but, I wish I could here what it was they were going to say. So thank you friend for trying for me and I'm so sorry I let you down. I hate that it's too late now, hind sight thing. Please think of my stupid ways as a lesson as to whom is not respecting boundaries. You know already you deserve better much better. This message has been conveyed to I will always remember you but not what you said I'm such an asshole. One secret (if it was that) that is safe from disclosures.