I've been going thru the Confessions starting from the beginning - Feb '11. (a few months later was the last time I saw him) I'm not reading all of them, skim most of them... just read the interesting and/or the funny ones. Now up to 2017. See the ones that were to him and the ones that could of been from him.... some i hope are, some i don't. But there was one, that i haven't seen since that year, that really seemed like it could have been from him because it mentioned things that only he could have known along with his incorrect, although understandable, assumptions. What was the punch was learning that certain mutual aquaintances had been apparently (either innocently or not) suggesting stuff that was way off track. A friend asked why i would care about someone who would believe lies, but i understand why he would want to believe that. Choosing to believe that the other person is a bad person is easier than acknowledging that things didn't happen because of a lack of communication. I could have told him how i felt, sure. But logic seemed that - why would he want to be with somene who's only attractive on the inside when he could be with someone who's both inside and out (like him)? He probably thought i was contacting him to try for a 2nd chance, but if i didn't think i was worthy back then, i sure af am not going to think i'm worthy now. Plus even if i was worthy, i'm not into trying for another woman's man. It probably wouldn't have lasted (most older woman/younger guy relationships don't) but it would have been fuckin fun.