Or at least it feels like it. The good thing is that there’s no where to go but up. I’ve finally accepted that a relationship that almost destroyed me is well and truly over. It still hurts but I’m done fighting for it. I’ve let myself sink into an abyss so deep that I barely recognized myself. Self medicating with booze, not taking care of myself or doing any of the things that I always loved to do. Now I feel this sense of now or never. No more grief for what is lost. Digging deep inside for that tough and resilient person that’s been too quiet for too long. Wish me luck; it’s not going to be easy but I know I can do this.