Zero Motivation

I used to be creative. I’ve lost my desire to even try. It’s almost like I’m just lazy now. Getting a pen to paper is too much effort. I wander back and forth from the bathroom and stare at the computer all day while accomplishing absolutely nothing. I’m even losing my will to go grocery shopping. I just can’t be bothered. I went outside to try and go for a walk and it just started pissing rain. It was beautiful yesterday but it never lasts for more than a day. If I never saw another day of rain in my life I wouldn’t miss it.

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Anonymous

Jun 26, 2020 at 5:49pm

there are places it almost never rains.
if you have the free time to pace around doing nothing maybe you aren't working?
so why not move to one of these places?

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This might sound counterintuitive

Jun 26, 2020 at 7:49pm

But if you can muster the energy, try cleaning and organizing your space.

I felt an immediate connection with this post, as I’ve been an exhausted, depressed, agoraphobic couch/computer/device slave since mid-March. Over the past couple of weeks I’ve been doing some spring cleaning that I’ve been procrastinating on forever. It got my body moving, knocked some cobwebs loose from my mind, and resulted in increased energy overall.

And you never know what past idea fragments or objects of creative inspiration you might unearth! Sometimes the things around us just need to be reconfigured in order to blossom with new life and spark something fresh within us.

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Me too!

Jun 26, 2020 at 8:18pm

I’m feeling exactly the same way. I know I’m depressed. The thing is that all of the activities that will help with that seem to be too far out of reach for me right now. Truly depressed in other words. Like most reasonably intelligent people I’m fully aware of what I “should” be doing to combat the depression. However, I’m depressed! So to all of you very well-meaning types, please try not to patronize those of us who are trying to cope with this illness. Knowing what we should do and actually being able to do it don’t always mesh, particularly for those of us who are seriously depressed. I’ve told my loved ones that I’m really struggling and need help, but other than some kind words on the phone there’s been no actual help. I’m a victim of my own previous self, who was uber-capable and in control. I think none of my family can really understand that I’m a shadow of who I used to be and I’m really, really struggling.

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I Know..

Jun 26, 2020 at 9:51pm

How you feel, you are not alone in this. I am in the same situation. I also used to be very active. a few days back I walked up a small hill and it almost killed me because I've only left the house twice this month. There is no reason to really, and Covid has not gone away, although people are treating it that way. Big hugs!

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I get it

Jun 26, 2020 at 10:48pm

Normally I'm a creative person, but everything is upside down now, and I have a hard time finding that creative energy. It's hard to be creative when you're stressed. Leaving the home is good; I feel inspired by what I see. Seeing images of creativity is helpful for me as it is a concrete visual that things are still possible and doable. Don't be too hard on yourself right now. It's a traumatic time and we are just all learning day by day, week by week to cope with this strange new world.

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Why doncha just stay in the bathroom

Jun 26, 2020 at 11:58pm

And stare at you seff in the mirror? You might make a friend

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Get off the computer

Jun 27, 2020 at 12:30pm

Seriously. Trust me. I'm in my 40s and I've suffered from depression since puberty. It goes up and down. I have good months and bad months. OK years and bad years. I ALWAYS feel worse after too much computer time. I ALWAYS feel better even after a simple 3 block walk. Does it make depression go away? Nope. But it gives me a clear mind for at least a little bit. Please know you're not alone. Many of us suffer from this horrible disease.

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Just a thought...

Jun 29, 2020 at 9:19pm

I’ve struggled with this too, but occasionally I find just browsing Pinterest will inspire me to try something new. If you want a little more motivation, you might want to check out HitRecord, Joseph Gordon Levitt’s site, which is designed for exactly this sort of situation. It helps people find projects to work on, find people to work with or find support for their own projects. Plus, it’s actually great for just helping to inspire your own ideas even if you want to go the solo route. Don’t be too hard on yourself. This is a weird time and it feels a lot like we’re all on hold until something shifts in the political, environmental, economic universes, plus, we’re in a fucking pandemic and there’s no good new shows on Netflix. You’ll get it back.

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