It's bullshit. You know it. I know it. Those that are around you all know it. Everyone knows it, and there is just no more hiding it from anyone not even yourself. You probably know this already but taking medicine once in the bum is a lot better than taking it down the throat 24/7 making you feel like you're continually swallowing your own vomit. All you can do is bend over, think happy thoughts, and hope it's enough to do what it is you need it to do.