I feel a really profound loss due to a collapse in communication with someone I can't stop thinking about.
I also feel really sad, unsure of my future in general. I can't find a way out of my conventional life nor can I escape feelings I have trouble putting into words regarding my relationship...although I know it's not good feelings. I feel alone, uncertain about everything that is my life these days, save for my kids who are a successful legacy out of all this.
I just can't shake the sadness. I wish I knew how to fix this collapse to make things better.