Nagging doubt

I feel a really profound loss due to a collapse in communication with someone I can't stop thinking about. I also feel really sad, unsure of my future in general. I can't find a way out of my conventional life nor can I escape feelings I have trouble putting into words regarding my relationship...although I know it's not good feelings. I feel alone, uncertain about everything that is my life these days, save for my kids who are a successful legacy out of all this. I just can't shake the sadness. I wish I knew how to fix this collapse to make things better.

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You know

Jul 5, 2020 at 12:57pm

Hell most everyone knows.
Why is the simplest answer so daunting.
Do you have a well witten 5 plan ?
Because apparently you wont get a business loan without it.
Plans change daily with open ended loans.

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The world is going to burn.

Jul 5, 2020 at 1:05pm

If you've rejected and shut out love to pursue and lock yourself into the things and ways of this world, and you're not prepared for the one that's coming then I'm afraid you and your children will likely become toast in the future. Perhaps you should go find yourself a cave out in the wilderness and learn to live unconventionally.

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@you know

Jul 5, 2020 at 5:36pm

Are you high? This has nothing to do with business or business loans. Or is this some metaphor so complex that even you can't articulate it?

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See if you keep on

Jul 5, 2020 at 6:11pm

Keeping quiet it will never change, because this is as quiet as not addressing this problem IRL. just saying is all.

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It's so obvious

Jul 5, 2020 at 6:42pm

Face the reality of how you feel. Accept the validity of your feelings, realizing that they are about certain “core” beliefs which are not necessarily factual statements of your reality. That is, you may have feelings because of how you were raised, but you've grown/changed since then and those old feelings are getting in the way of how you truly feel now.
Your heart is practically crying out to you and, as you can see, it's not going to stop. Wake up to who you are inside, the real you, the you that wants to live life instead of live with regret, dying of loneliness inside. Go for it. Experience life while you have the chance instead of forever wondering "what if".

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Communication

Jul 5, 2020 at 10:11pm

Happens many ways. Boomerangs and big boomers Jar jar

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Banana

Jul 6, 2020 at 8:53pm

Maybe they feel the same loss too

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I am going through very much..

Jul 8, 2020 at 9:45pm

The same thing minus the kids. She has been very difficult to read, leaving me totally fucked. So after my last emotional breakdown and like 3 hours of crying in a ravine near where we use to hang out. I got up and said no more been avoiding her ever since but the sadness and pain remain.

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