I’m reeling after spending the whole night having major anxiety and an emotional meltdown. I was having a wonderful day up until I started reading an article online that related to typical behaviour patterns of people who have been traumatized, and who’ve been diagnosed either with PTSD or C-PTSD. (I had been in the past.) I was reading the list and it became abundantly clear that I exhibit almost all of these behaviours all the time. Suddenly I was crying and shaking and I guess I had an anxiety attack. I feel completely worn out now and I realized that I really haven’t been coping as well as I thought I had. I’ve just been trying not to think about my feelings, but obviously avoiding them hasn’t worked. I really need someone to talk to, but I can’t afford therapy and I don’t want to put any more stress on my family and friends. I’m just not sure where to turn now, but something’s got to change.