I have standards. I'm not attracted to over weight women. I have tried it, thinking maybe I can find an attraction to a good person who is overweight, and her looks wont matter. It just ends up being me in my 30's playing house with a women like I did in kindergarten, pretend to be in a relationship with a girl. So I must look like a judgemental ass hole. That's fine. Believe what you believe, judge me as you will. My problem starts when I do get attention from the kind of woman I'm interested in. As soon as they message me and say hi or ask me questions or whatever, I start to think "she's out of my league" or " I dont deserve her". So I think I'm better than the women who are in to me (for lack of better words), but I think I'm not good enough for the women I am interested in. My biggest fear in life is dying alone, but that seems exactly what I am headed for, and there doesnt seem to be anything I can do about it.