I have the biggest crush on this woman in my building. I've been obsessed with her for a few years, but it's really ramped up since March. I think isolating with the people in my bubble really made it obvious how unhappy I am. I've been in a shame rage spiral for so long I don't know even what's real anymore. I really wish I could tell her how I feel but I know it's too late and I don't have a right after all's said and done. I said and did horrible things and I just can't bring myself to look her in the eye. I have no life or anything to talk about but her. Watching her around the building is the highlight of my life. I guess that will have to keep me going.