Has known that it's not worth using your ass for *this system since the 80s. Look at the situation we are in now. No amount of bootstrapping could prepare anyone for how badly society is failing.

Just want to live in a van and camp with my dog. This would be heaven. I can’t, I live a nightmare of a mortgage, a good job to pay the bills and feed the family.
Honestly, I wish someone should have said it’s your life, not the society norm....

You know all you ever have to do is ask ?
Thats it.
Simplicity
For everyone really.
Hardest thing to do is to put yourself out there.
Be yourself!
But what else is there, the reasoning of life
When you get right down to it..

I am hoping these people invested in you because of who you are, not what you planned to do. Society tends to put heavy focus on traditional manifestations of success, when in fact success can come in many forms.

I want to give you a big hug and tell you that you’re not a failure and that you’re good enough as you are. You are worthy.

At the same time I’m tearing up because all that you’ve expressed here are things that I’ve said to myself.

I hate the game so much; so feeling you on that. Good thing the game is changing. Maybe you were in tune with this all along.

Your internal beliefs (like “I’m too sensitive to succeed “) can be worked on and worked through, if you like. But you don’t have to be a high achiever to be a successful person in my eyes. Focus on areas you can bring value to the world without focusing on monetization. It’s likely that other people keep rooting for you because you’re a person worth rooting for, not because they have a secret agenda of you fulfilling their every expectation.

Cheer up friend. Highly likely people are not disappointed in you. Most people are too busy thinking about themselves to really notice others. Dont be too hard yourself also. My ideal life was getting harvard math degree then work as tennis instructor at posh club. Former is to satisfy myself I got something between the brains and the latter to avoid working to benefit the man (rat race). You accomplished the first and the second is still in the works is how I see it.

It is not changing, it is getting much worse. Go check out how the stock market is doing for Government employees who continued to collect salaries that gave them $$ to invest.

"Don't worry, we'll give you shit money that doesn't even pay your mortgage or bills as "support," and hey, investments are for billionaires and government employees."

Working to help animals can sometimes be heartbreaking, but if you get good grades in the appropriate courses, I bet you would be a kick-ass person to work saving animals. I was never able to get the grades for math and sciences but if I did that's what I would be doing. Also animals are the best beings to have as a friend - they always love you no matter what - just think about it - and give yourself a chance - you never know where it could lead - when you're 80 you could look back and be proud of your accomplishments if you just let yourself give an animal your whole heart. Also, when I was a kid my family didn't have much money, so I never had many of the toys of the day that were advertised. But what we had was pets, and I got way more out of those pets then I would have from some plastic toy. Some animal out there needs you - and would love you, even when you don't love yourself.

That's all I got - I hope it helps a bit.

And dropped out of the game a long time ago. However I must say I do miss being someone. It gets lonely in a singular universe. I understand though the trade. Nobody in our aspirational world wants a slacker for a friend. What would you talk about? What you didn't do today?

This game is becoming about as challenging as the daily jumble. I think I am ready for a sit down. Coffee talk?