I’m in my mid 40’s, it took me this long to acknowledge that I have depression and that I have always lived with people thinking I wasn’t good enough for them. My father always treated me that way, I was in a 4 year relationship and had a daughter with her, as soon as she was born I was no longer needed, my daughter at 15 years old decided she didn’t want anything to do with me anymore (she’s now 24). My wife of 19 years has always treated me like I have lots of changes to make and never showed me she loved me for who I am. Because of all this, I began a relationship 7 years ago with someone from work. She is the most beautiful and amazing woman I have ever met and she told me every day how amazing I am, she divorced her husband to be with me. I have so many other people telling me I’m an amazing person but the people close to me haven’t treated me that way. 2 months ago I told my wife everything and she moved out, I spent every day with the woman of my dreams. This is when I started talking to doctors and psychiatrists and realizing I need to take care of my mental health. I thought it wasn’t fair to carry this into my new relationship and my wife begged for another chance. I stayed with my wife, the other woman who is still the only woman I have ever truly loved just told me today she’s engaged. A month ago she told me still misses me so much. I’m devastated and don’t know how to deal with this. I don’t think I can.