Seeing Pandemic as a Blessing

The people I thought were close were actually not. And that's turned out to be a really good thing Thank God pants are not as often necessary as in Before Times The relationships I bled for before ended up bleeding themselves out on their own The people who stuck around were not who I thought would I'm actually more than ok on my own than I thought I could be Nesting is a very real thing, and when done right (just authentically for myself) is actually amazing The feel of Good Toilet Paper is absolutely real (when available) If I have to spend time on my own, I might as well start getting to know myself Always add more garlic 'Chores' are just performing loving favours for my Future Self ("I know Future Me won't want to do these dishes, so I'll just do them now") I actually love myself more than I thought I did Cleaning is pretty therapeutic Instead of envying evidence of coupled neighbours, I can instead be happy such connections still exist I don't have to make up excuses for not wanting to be around negative people It's more than okay to just sit in a contented space of simply Existing Accomplishments can be small. I got dressed today. That's a Pretty Big Deal, really: I have a Body to Dress This body. I hated it before, but now I love it, because even though it's not perfect, it's gotten me here, to enjoy all these small joys in this space of Universal Lack and Pain Lack and Pain are both still Feelings. I'm thankful to be able to Feel Small joys. A good meal made. An artful playlist curated. A decent connection at the grocery till. A returned smile at a stoplight. Hey, that dog wagged its tail at me. That's really cool I never got to know Real Me in the Before Times. I never knew all the small wonders that could possibly make me happy, because I was always so busy busy busy at trying to be be be Even though I dutifully wear a mask now in all public spaces, I actually get to wear none of the ones I made myself wear before I'm just me I'm just finally Me I love me. And I hope you all love You too.

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I love this post :)

Apr 3, 2021 at 8:43am

My heart feels full and content after reading this. Thank you, OP.

Bravo OP!

Apr 3, 2021 at 9:42am

Beautifully written! I'm happy to hear you feel this way and hope many other do as well. I have let go of energy sucking needy "friends" that just complained at me or about their jobs and it feels amazing to just be and not have that noise. Keep enjoying the new you and the positives in your world.

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Anonymous

Apr 3, 2021 at 12:51pm

You forgot to mention making endless lists as a result of social distancing.

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Cheers to you!

Apr 3, 2021 at 1:21pm

Pandemic poetry at its finest. Thank you for the honest insights and clever revelations. May you continue upon this new found path with courage and clarity. Thanks for the smile!

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Yes &

Apr 3, 2021 at 2:47pm

I love you too

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Angie

Apr 3, 2021 at 7:48pm

Ain't it good to be alive?!

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Anonymous

Apr 3, 2021 at 8:20pm

I love your confession op and really appreciated that you pointed out how all accomplishments are important. It's so easy when you're on your own to neglect to acknowledge or celebrate all the things to be grateful for, big or small. Relationships are being tested beyond what anyone could prepare for. It just teaches us that the most important relationship we have is with ourselves. Enduring and heartfelt message, thank you for shining a light on all the reasons to live in love in these trying times <3

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At the 100th meridian

Apr 3, 2021 at 11:14pm

Start with your right hand on the middle of your chest. Press firmly down the center of your breastbone right down the middle as far as you can go. Wrap around the middle of your self right down the center feeling slowly every inch of the way. When you reach your full extent pass over to your left hand and continue around and around your body trading hands. Repeat...

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Gorilla glue

Apr 4, 2021 at 12:08am

You hit on all the big self-discoveries I made during the last year too. So much BS has fallen away to make room for new growth.

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Thank you ..

Apr 4, 2021 at 2:12am

.. for putting how I feel into words.

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