I am a man. Over the years, there have been times when I thought that some men wanted to be with me. I remember deciding that if they did, I would try to do what they wanted. To do oral sex for them. To let them sodomize me. But, it never happened. Instead of feeling relieved, I felt disappointed. I wanted to know what it would have been like, to swallow their come. To feel them move and ejaculate inside me. And now, I will never know.