It makes me feel better to not take care of myself.posted May 14th, 2021 at 10:46 AM When I don't brush my teeth, when I don't get a good night's sleep, I feel better. It's as though I'm undeserving of decent self care. Show 10 Comments 10 Comments Post a Comment tiredeyesMay 14, 2021 at 3:59pmyou deserve to treat yourself well. I understand your point of viewMay 14, 2021 at 4:13pmWhat you describe is totally normal and I sometimes feel the same. But I also want to give you a big hug and tell you that you are worthy of care, love, and good outcomes.Keep in mind the world is set up to convince us, starting in childhood, that we are not enough and we are not worthy. That way, we will buy things to compensate for our illusory lack of wholeness and locate our value in people who want to exploit us.I don’t know about you, but seeing it through that crass and objective lens can help to spark that fire within me that says, “hey, this is bullshit” and inspire some rage against the machine style radical self care. And P.S.— shagginess is okay too. We are firmly in sweatpants times.Take it easy and slow. Consciousness is evolving and the times they are a changing. sigh...May 14, 2021 at 5:12pmI do feel better when I do both of those rather than just one or neither, but being harmed by forced drugging + long-term damage from *previous* decades of forced drugging + constant deliberate nonlocal harm (a fact, surprisingly) + continuous auditory assault day after day + being subjected to all sorts of other violence, suppressions, disinformation and harms, doesn't allow me much choice with even certain forms of basic self-care, sometimes. enjoy it now...May 14, 2021 at 7:13pm...because this kind of behaviour will come to bite you in the ass eventually. Hello clinical depression, my old friendMay 14, 2021 at 10:05pmI hope you feel better soon. Random dudeMay 15, 2021 at 4:16amThat’s exactly how I felt when I was a heavy drinker. The teethMay 15, 2021 at 7:42amIf you can only manage one thing when you are down, brush your teeth. You can get actually get sick by leaving all that decay in your mouth. It can't possibly make you feel truly better, when it tastes bad, smells bad, looks bad and feels hideous. Shtupit isMay 15, 2021 at 7:47amas shtupit does mojitaMay 15, 2021 at 8:02amIt's called depression. AnonymousMay 16, 2021 at 6:02pmIt could be that you grew up in an unloving environment with no healthy relationships to compare to what giving and receiving love looks like. If so then it makes perfect sense that unhealthy relationships with others and self feel closer to love when that's all you were shown. LOAD MORE Join the Discussion Your name Comment * your name What's your name?