Surrounded by a thick dense fog

Depression is like a thick, dense fog that doesn’t just follow you around. It surrounds you. You’re in it and it’s pitch black. I’m talking pitch black like the sky out in the bush away from the city light. But unlike the sky it’s like you’re drowning, both legs chained to iron balls. You’ve been treading for so long, grasping for anything that floats by. You’re white knuckling it, trying to hold on for your life because you don’t want to hurt your loved ones by letting go. You’re exhausted. You so desperately need it to end. You need relief, and yet you are lost, alone, head barely above the surface in a sea of darkness. There’s no way out, no way through. There’s just no other way.

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May 4, 2021 at 11:41pm

Great imagery. Nice writing.

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automaton

May 5, 2021 at 12:13am

There is another way out. Face the darkness. Be the shift within the shade, and you will discover the grey. It is so much easier to paint bright colors over grey; one has to do the work of getting there.

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You are with the effort

May 5, 2021 at 1:25am

You are worth it, and your loved ones are with it. You are loved, hold on. Reach out for help.

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Do not give up

May 5, 2021 at 4:26am

Do not give up. Contact the suicide hotline, of on medication- change your meds. Talk with someone, even a ear that will listen

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Wish I

May 5, 2021 at 7:25am

Could help you out of it.

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Privileged"

May 5, 2021 at 8:02am

Getting a dog gave me enough reason to live, companionship and exercise to keep all that you speak of at bay. Not everyone can have one, I realize but it worked for me. I already had another dog lined up when my last one died as a precaution.

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Wow...

May 5, 2021 at 9:24am

You paint a vivid and so accurate portrayal of depression. I so remember being there, it’s so awful :( but there is always a way out, the Universe works in mysterious ways.

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Clinical depression

May 5, 2021 at 12:10pm

is a horrible experience. I have felt it. But it is a disease that can be treated. Please seek help. Medications can be very effective. I also want to comment that you are a very good writer.

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Stop

May 5, 2021 at 2:04pm

romanticizing depression.

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@Stop

May 5, 2021 at 8:13pm

Doesn’t look to me like they are romanticizing anything.
Writing is a form of catharsis which the op desperately needs at this time.

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