... has had two overdoses that he had to go to the hospital for and now he's not the same. He was never all there but now he starts foaming at the mouth and yelling in conversations. If we go to a restaurant he'll argue with the staff being appropriate. My parents split up when I was very young. My mom has health problems and need someone to take care of her so I do that now. I've actually been doing it since he left not that it's abnormal to have chores in a household but I sort of wonder when I get a period of not everything working as if my magic I know that's not how life works, but I guess maybe this is cuz I'm slow I'm sort of realizing that it's never going to be like it was for all my peers whose family stayed together, whose dads didn't prefer doing drugs to staying at home. I've tried counseling, I've tried every class of drugs that physicians will prescribe, I've done the whole self-improvement weightlifting yoga hiking West coast lifestyle thing, and what I'm starting to realize is that none of it's ever going to kill the pain.