Im an asshole

posted July 17th, 2021 at 2:10 PM

I am learning to be an asshole. I don't want to be, but it seems to be the only way to counter the constant bombardment of negativity and "advice" - finger wagging. Media is one thing, they do it to t get you to consume, but its the constant pressure to self doubt, and undermine my self esteem. I have to constantly remind myself that I am okay, i don't need to be perfect, why do so many people try to make me feel like i need to drink their newfound flavor of coolaid. From the financial advice of people that are so heavy in debt, to my ex who knows everything but cant get a job in this market to support her kids. From institution like religion, and police, who are are rotten from the inside, telling us how to behave. The friend who tells me to skip my craft beers; but I should try pharmaceuticals, pot and hallucinogens to expand my mind. My various employers for years telling me how replaceable I am, but cant find any employees to give time off, not to mention my pay is the same for the last ten years. Don't get me started on dating, jesus, its like Shania said, that "aint good enough". Yes, i pay a therapist to give me perspective that I am okay! I know this, but still go, because the barrage of finger wagging is stifling. Jesus, why do I have to be an asshole and tell people to chill the fuck out, otherwise they don't get it. What the hell do you bring to the table? I am happy to learn and grow from people that are actually doing the things they preach about, and succeeding at it. So if i cut you off in the left lane because you've been doing the speed limit, just like the car next to you for the last hour. Fuck you. I don't want to do that, thanks for the lesson. Do your thing, please, just do your thing, stop shoveling that down my throat and let me be.

24 Comments

Wow

Jul 17, 2021 at 10:07pm

Thanks so much for you insightful wisdom. You are really helping yourself the community. You did get your dirty but hole title right though.

Anonymous

Jul 18, 2021 at 3:05am

Everyone's a guru these days. In the critically-acclaimed CBC documentary, The Trouble with Experts, it seems that popular experts don’t know any more than you or me. A 20-year study of experts shows they’re only right about half the time. So that's a coin toss, right? Why would the opinions of the people in our lives be any better? I just got fed up with them all and minimized my participation in society. Best of luck, you'll need it.

To be fair....

Jul 18, 2021 at 7:11am

... you sound uptight. Taking a lot of acid couldn't hurt you.

I get it

Jul 18, 2021 at 7:47am

While I’m pretty much the opposite of your personal situation, I 100% understand the rage. Oftentimes I look out into the city and it feels like everything is packaged in a way where we are just to be sheep to follow and to be pushed along by the other sheep. And then one encounters the smug attitude of people who are living life “right”. I too resent being a cog in the wheel so I do my own thing to which there are very few others doing it in my age, race and gender. It is freeing. Hopefully you can find that space, whatever it may be, where you can exist and flourish and where no one but you directs you. The need for agency and self actualization is deep and real.

Ha Ha Ha

Jul 18, 2021 at 9:43am

Eureka! Welcome my Friend this is LIFE.
Grab a bag of BC's Finest Herbs pick up a couple grams of Shrooms and Let it all Go.

Laughter is the new Medicine.

PEACE

Yep

Jul 18, 2021 at 10:36am

Society tells men they need to be a polite, agreeable, manly providers who do everything to build everyone around them up, in order to have any worth. And what did it get ME? Nothing but being taken advantage of,an empty wallet, and ignored while dating.
So years ago I became a ruthless asshole- my net worth skyrocketed as did my dating world.

Anonymous

Jul 18, 2021 at 11:50am

The problem is there is no love anymore other than self hatred and not being good enough or pretty/handsome enough or have enough money, status, friends, brand names on your back.
Then people are also worried about being scammed or being taken advantage by others that we are always on the defensive and never give anyone a chance.
Cynically world we live in now, so much unrest and uncertainty about life going forward.
How do you take fear and hatred and turn it into love and acceptance ?
Love is the only way to true happiness and Saving our planet ( Earth )should be top priority because we have nowhere else to go.

Everyone

Jul 18, 2021 at 12:04pm

is an expert in everyone else's business.

You are not ok!

Jul 18, 2021 at 12:09pm

Road rage on strangers is not acceptable. Take your rage out in a safe way with those family members that you are pissed at, not the general public

Feel The Way I Want To

Jul 18, 2021 at 12:17pm

Everybody so quick to stand up
And say it gotta be this way or that way
Gotta ask yourself, is this really what I wanted?
Everybody so quick to cry out
And say you gotta keep your shit together
But baby watch me freak out