I don't have many people that I can call as friends. The ones I do mean a lot to me. I haven't done a good job of living life. To many jobs, too many locations, not enough dollars. I'm lost the will to find work and now add a new place to live. My money is drying up. Believe me, if I had supports or resources I wouldn't care but I don't. I can't call my friends. I don't want to burden them, certainly not with these problems. It would put them through stress and I love them too much to put my problems on them. They can't help and they have their own lives with more responsibilities. I'm old and burnt out from trying because nobody wants an old person around. I am planning steps to give up for good if I can't fix this. I have noone to talk to. I'm publicly together and privately alone. It hurts and I wish there was some way, some miracle. But let's be real, I'm out of time. There's no such thing as miracles.