10..11 years later?

I confess I am still in love with someone 10 or 11 years later. Haven't seen/spoken to this person since then.. but somehow they've been in my mind and heart forever..and counting. I cannot confess to anyone, so I will confess here. Maybe they will come back into town for the holidays to see family, and maybe we will see each other? Maybe he is thinking of me too? His last words still ring in my head... "we will never be okay".. But maybe time has healed those wounds? ...Sigh

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Anonymous

Sep 23, 2021 at 12:37am

Yeah, me too. Same timeline, same story. Almost. Kind of. But 10-11 years is 10-11 years. Everything has changed. Plot lines...and hair lines and maybe waist lines too. I don't know. What could have been (if it could have been) is gone. When I think of them, which I admit I still do way too often, I just feel a sort of dull emptiness.

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I made such a horse's ass

Sep 23, 2021 at 12:51am

out of myself over someone once. While it may seem intimate, you're never sure where you're going or where it's leading to

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my self

Sep 23, 2021 at 5:12am

i kind of think that is true love

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dang

Sep 23, 2021 at 5:35am

i'm only on month 2 and i'm sad as hell already

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possible

Sep 23, 2021 at 6:37am

If you think of him often in love then he may be feeling your signal from time to time because i think one telegraphs strong feelings like a radio wave and a deep love for someone is a very powerful energy after all. I'm inclined to believe this.

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I understand but…

Sep 23, 2021 at 7:40am

You know the truth. If he wanted to be with you he would be. It’s time for you to move on. You can keep him in your heart in that place meant for memories, but opening up the rest of your heart for someone new will bring you the happiness that you deserve.

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Word OP

Sep 23, 2021 at 8:04am

For me it's 10 - 12 years. First met in Sept at the Vapour Lounge, last seen in April near BCIT. Didn't fall in love right away, but did like him because he was nice. Gradually fell in love after listening to him speak at a few meetups because it became obvious he was highly intelligent. I missed out on my chance because I figured he was way out of my league and so didn't say anything (when you've been called "ugly" since 12, it can wreck your self esteem, ofc).

@OP Kind of interesting how you started out with the pc "them" but then decided to reveal his gender.
Also, for sure your mc will get over your past (& might even forgive). If not now, then probably years down the road when he's a senior and has had time to view things from a more evolved state of mind.

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back to anon

Sep 23, 2021 at 9:25am

"I just feel a sort of dull emptiness" - from what happened in the past?

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It's lost for a reason

Sep 23, 2021 at 11:30am

Regrets we've all had a few.
But starting over is what ya got to do.
It's not that scary Oh Boo Hoo !
Rhyme time bitches
Lol

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was it at

Sep 23, 2021 at 4:58pm

first sight just wondering

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