In high school, I was bullied, and I was a bully.

In high school, I was bullied, and I was a bully. All of the bullying awareness messages made me remember. I feel pain when I remember being bullied. I feel shame at having bullied a fellow student.

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Wow

Oct 20, 2021 at 9:08pm

that's my exact same history too. My answer to getting bullied was to learn to bully the bullies, which ain't for the best; but even worse, I didn't realize I lost discretion and hurt some good people too. When i thankfully was able to accomplish a bit more necessary maturity; I felt i had to track down a few good people I had hurt and make some apologies.

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Wondering...

Oct 22, 2021 at 6:29am

If any of these people you sought out had terrible fates because of your bullying. Like dying or something. Or what they had to deal with in order to deal with your apologies.

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@Wondering

Oct 22, 2021 at 5:17pm

Sad to say, one guy I could have handled more gently died young by suicide. I now feel terrible about it. I didn't really bully him; but I did give him a medium gentle slap to try and bring him to attention when he was disturbing the neighbourhood. Rather than giving him that slap I sure do now wish I would have put my arm around him with a hug and asked him into my house to try and counsel him. There's no way I can change the pass but I do now wish I would have been more mature to handle him better and I do now send out affirmations to wish him well on his journey.

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ooshpick

Oct 23, 2021 at 8:17am

Thanks for talking about it. Bullying is part of many cultures and happens in obvious and less obvious ways. The fact that it pains/shames you indicates that you have reckoned with it somewhat. You have feelings about it. You care. That is an indication of your humanity.

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Oh well

Oct 24, 2021 at 8:37pm

What’s done is done. You can’t change the past.

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Anonymous

Oct 28, 2021 at 12:03am

You sound like a phony much like those bullying awareness messages. It doesn't sound like you learned anything. You're in good phony company. Government to media like this, ask them anything about their bullying and harassment policies, see what the answer is. You might as well be speaking to a brick wall. They don't care about anything but their profits. Their policies are for show only. Much like your confession. Validation for poor behaviour that hasn't changed or been reflected on in any meaningful way.

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Be Stronger

Oct 28, 2021 at 5:37pm

The thing about bullying is that it usually comes from what children see at home either bad unhealthy parenting or abuse at home , leads a child or person to want to hurt others because they are so hurting inside. You can sometimes become the thing you hate the most.
There should be a zero tolerance for bullying at school's because that's where it happens for most children.
Show love not hate.
It always blows my mind how a parent can abuse their own children.
How can you do that ?
Be strong and break the cycle !

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