Outburst and regret

Last night I lost it on a guy I thought was driving too fast in a residential neighborhood. He was but I was way out of line and acted like a psychotic person. To his credit he handled my ridiculous outburst very well. He tried to calm me down and then when noticing I was unreasonable wished me a good night and walked away. I stormed off and as soon as I turned a corner realized how stupid I acted and had immediate shame and regret. Anyone who might have witnessed this would think I was a lunatic. I went back about 10 minutes later to apologize but he was gone. In my daily life I think most people would describe me as unfailingly polite and kind. But everyone once in awhile an anger rises out of me that I can't seem to control. This is something I've decided to seek help with. I never want to be the person I was last night ever again.

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Anonymous

Oct 13, 2021 at 12:21pm

You’re fine. Anger is an emotion we all feel. It’s just the suppression of this emotion. No one is in touch with their anger anymore which leaves a guy to outburst at times. You gotta diffuse the anger. In a liberal world no one wants to feel anger. You’re human and you did nothing wrong. Be angry with Trudeau, not yourself.

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Don’t worry about it….

Oct 13, 2021 at 1:30pm

…..you were just channeling the neighbourhood. All good, you might have saved a life with that fearsome jolt of rage and energy.

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I wholeheartedly agree...

Oct 13, 2021 at 2:23pm

Never again. There was immense fear here of being violated by "the system", too. Sigh... I will never let something like that happen again.

Misunderstanding reality and responding to incorrect interpretations of human behaviors can be very traumatizing. Especially because it gets mirrored back, a self-perpetuating hall of mirrors feedback k loop. Sure has been traumatizing, agonizing and utterly harmful for me...

Anyways, now that that's over, I'm just doing the best I can with healing trauma, healing the body, understanding myself, others and reality deeper, returning to a state of well-being and peace, and... um, hoping to Infinity I don't end up violated by the system and its people-extensions for that.

Because it really did seem "psychotic", didn't it? And still, not a harmed person in sight. ...except me again, I guess. And no, there's no actual danger from me. Or intention of it, either.

I've just been unloved and treated like shit (utterly violently by the system, for about 2 decades now, for no valid or ethically justifiable reason) for so long, I don't even remember what well-being feels like anymore.

:(

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But

Oct 13, 2021 at 5:34pm

your "lunatic" behaviour may very well have saved the life of a child playing on that residential street next week. You have nothing to be ashamed of if he was an entitled jerk behaving dangerously. Just keep in mind that people were probably filming you through their curtains on their telephones so they can capitalize on you via YouTube.

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Relax

Oct 13, 2021 at 9:13pm

You're fine. I do the blowup thing quite often!

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Okay let me get this straight…

Oct 13, 2021 at 9:56pm

He was DRIVING too fast and after you lost it, he WALKED away and you STORMED around a corner but ten minutes later you went back to see if he was still there but he was gone. Is that right? If he were driving why would he be there ten minutes later? This doesn’t make sense.

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Thought...

Oct 14, 2021 at 5:35am

Any chance you're female?
If so you could be Perimenopausal, this happens to us sometimes and we all regret it.

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A Karen

Oct 14, 2021 at 10:10am

is born every minute. I know a bunch of young women who will be the biggest Karens when they grow up. Yes, im talking about you millennials.

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Tyler

Oct 14, 2021 at 4:29pm

To answer the one reply, the driver had parked and during our “discussion “ he mentioned that he lived on that street. That’s why I went back hoping he was there. I brought a note as well but his car was gone.

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@A Karen

Oct 15, 2021 at 1:37am

This is the dumbest attitude ever. It’s just another way for society to shut women (especially white women) down and justify shitty service. Yes there are some people who act very entitled about everything all the time, but nowadays it’s become common to call someone a Karen if they dare to complain about anything. That’s just unreasonable, and I’m going to continue to stand up for myself and speak out when I feel it’s necessary. If I get terrible service or awful food in a business I will say something and you’re not going to scare me by calling me names.

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