I feel your sadness. I haven't seen nor spoken to any of my 3 boys in over 6months my calls go with no answer.
I'm So Proud of them and wish them the best.
The Silence and Loneliness.....Wow it can be very hard to handle

May Peace be with you All.

... didn't understand the assignment.

You need to fuck one of the up enough so they never leave home, like me!

Me too; but a mentor of mine long ago advised me: "We don't own our children. We are their temporary caregivers then they must find their own way." That certainly does not mean we ever quit loving them, only that we have to practice letting go. And the flip-side is; I now miss my parents RIP who I took for granted but sure do wish I would have listened better to their advice. But life goes on and on and on. Best we older ones can do now is make a life for ourselves and always let the children know we will always love them.

tell them.

Yea but who listens to their parents ? :-)

Never given love or affection, just resentment for existing. Parents are people too I get it. I turned out okay despite her efforts. Always envious of the beautiful relationships my peers have with their moms, I wish I had that. I bet your children love you with their whole hearts. I bet you are a very beautiful person, and perhaps one day, grandma.