I don’t know if I’m different, or if this happens to other people, but I find that with me, it takes someone REALLY special to sweep me enough off my feet, sufficiently so that I’d want to give up my freedom (which I quite enjoy), not because it gives me the liberty to sleep around, or date multiple people – which I do not do, but rather because I enjoy being on my own, making my own decisions, and generally being independent without having to consultant my plans with others. In my entire life, I’ve only met 3 people whom I liked enough to actually want to be committed to them in a relationship. None of them worked out in the end, but the last one was special. It ended as inexplicably as it began, as it appears we had very little in common other than an unimaginable physical and sexual attraction towards each other. Although it took me several years to get over this person, I think this was the closest I’ve ever come to loving someone. Simply knowing that I was going to see them that day, would make me feel butterflies in my stomach, and just being around them would turn me into an insecure little schoolboy (which I am not). We were definitely not meant to be with each other, as I would come to realize years later, but the excitement, attraction, fireworks and chemistry I felt within have been impossible to reignite by other interesting and attractive people I have met. Some years have passed since our ordeal ended, and I’m still wondering if I’m ever going to feel like that about anyone else, and If I’m ever going to find someone that makes me feel that or perhaps more.