Outsider

I don't know how to be part of things. My whole life I feel like I am watching other people participate in the world, and I'm just watching from the outside. I don't know how to break through and connect with people and things, it's like they have some capacity that I don't. Don't get me wrong, I survive, I have a job and apartment. I just feel so detached from everything, like I don't have the capacity to care about things or love anyone.

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Anonymous

Jun 5, 2022 at 9:03pm

"I don't have the capacity to care about things or love anyone". That's tough, but having to participate in society is rather overrated. Don't feel too bad, because it's largely gossiping, backstabbing, turning people against one another, forming coalitions to ostracize someone and buying/collecting things because everyone else is.

I recommend travel, you will find yourself engaged immediately because you're thrown way out of your comfort zone. It's nearly impossible to sleepwalk through your day when you're completely unfamiliar with your surroundings and the culture. Go for it, what do you got to lose?

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You have me wrong…

Jun 5, 2022 at 10:31pm

insider. I know you’re dying to know.

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I usta get that guy from the Outsiders

Jun 6, 2022 at 1:47am

You know the good looking one. Born to play the part. But you are way wrong if you believe it leaves me un aware and unfeeling on the outside. I know all about it hon. Like how waiting and practicing for the right pardner is infinitely better than wasting your time on varmints

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Hear Ya

Jun 6, 2022 at 6:24am

Sometimes you feel like a square peg trying to fit in a round hole.
Get a hammer. Lol
Hell you don't have to fit in, I say be your own crew and they will come.
Field of Dreams :)

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Us evolutionary hominoids on this Planet of the Apes

Jun 6, 2022 at 1:21pm

Tend to over-analyze that which is presently beyond our sensory computational analysis abilities. How bout just take a deep breath and make a life for ourselves. My way is not the only way and no one has to do it my way; BUT we can share and I can tell ya what's worked for me. I've learnt to start helping myself by helping those less fortunate than me. And in doing so, I've met wonderful people doing likewise and made wonderful precious new friends. Plus, some of those who I've helped help have gone on to make a life for themselves, and they've gone on to help others. And 'what goes around comes around', they've helped me. Sometimes all it takes is a kind word and a little insight to make a life changing (or life saving) change of path in someones day.

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My two cents...

Jun 6, 2022 at 5:33pm

I have felt the same way my whole life. Just last year I discovered CEN. Childhood Emotional Neglect. It sure made a lot of sense to me. Dr. Jonice Webb, see if she makes sense to you. I wish you well. I hope this may help.

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@Anonymous

Jun 6, 2022 at 10:06pm

Is it possible it's backwards? The things you noted, guide on participating in society, could easily be accomplished without "the capacity to care... "

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My aunt

Jun 7, 2022 at 9:50pm

Told me once that I’ve always looked like I’m waiting for something. I stand back separate from others. I have friends and care deeply about others but can’t figure out intimate connection. Just to say you’re not alone!

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