Recalibrating

I feel like I was happier in 2021 when things were more shut down and isolated. I felt joy at small things like texts to long lost friends, a flower patch in the sun, seeing the sun poke through the trees in the forests, cooking (which I had always hated and considered a chore and a bore). This year, things have reopened and re-entered society, but my happiness is much lower. I don’t feel connected to people in conversations, the crowds and prices of going out are draining, I’ve resumed my hobbies but feel I’ve plateaued. To chase happiness, I am failing this year. Elusive, mythical happiness. It’s not around the corner. I feel like I’ve lost the knowledge and blueprint of how to make myself happy.

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My best guess is

Aug 17, 2022 at 11:08pm

These are a time of planetary change. Not just the obvious pandemic, climate crisis and threat of WW3 but also saw the scientists who measure these things say the rotation speed of the Earth changed this year. Oh well, I ain't a know-it-all and who knows the full story but somehow my few little peaks through the inter-dimensional curtain show me life is eternal and its all good in the big picture.

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I hear you baby

Aug 18, 2022 at 3:11am

It feels like everyone is on the verge of some substantial mental illness.
The media coverage of late ie; nuclear war, the collapse of society etc isn't helping.

I recommend finding a man that is attractive, can cook and makes you feel like a girl should and head out to the country.

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You know

Aug 18, 2022 at 8:22am

You listed the things that made you happy and fulfilled. Spend some time around the trees, make a new recipe and invite friends for dinner. You can still try and keep your world a bit smaller than the media advertises. Cheers and good luck x

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I get it

Aug 18, 2022 at 3:56pm

The shutdowns were quite something. Stunning quiet. People being nervous but connected in that sense. Naturally it was a good time to reflect on our usual lifestyles and those of us who were still getting food money got a vacation (to be paid for with years of inflation due to printing money).

I’m not sorry to restart the world but like you I remember those early days of the pandy with a strange fondness.

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I’m worried and lost

Aug 18, 2022 at 11:23pm

Feeling like I learned a lot about myself being basically alone for two years. I have huge social anxiety and don’t have a clue how other people carry on and cope with life /simple tasks that defeat me. I get hopeless and deep despair sometimes feeling like an alien outsider that can’t connect. All to say I relate and this return to normalcy just shows how not normal I am. I stopped checking news and am ignorant about everything after years being diligently informed but disturbed by media. Socials are gone they make me feel like crap. I am rudderless and use my energy battling mental enemies but I tell myself I’m alive and it’s a miracle so keep going xx

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I found the blueprints…

Aug 19, 2022 at 12:12pm

For my happiness…after endless searching I’ve come to the realization that the ingredients I need are just not available, ever… guess you can blame it on the supply chain

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Bo

Aug 19, 2022 at 2:38pm

I could have written this myself;I feel exactly the same way OP. I know it was a difficult, stressful,horrible time for many people and I understand; I had my own challenges but( and I know I'm not alone) I actually felt so much freer during lockdown.The quietness and empty ness of the city was something I really loved. Yes,there were times when I felt so lonely( I live alone and my family is on the east coast)but I would get on my bike and ride for hours everyday ( it kept me sane) throughout the city and beyond.It was so peaceful and I was so grateful I had a bike.Now,I have a hard time connecting to people and going back to working 40 hours doesn't leave much time or energy to ride.I miss many aspects of lockdown.And I know others feel the same way.

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