I'm so angry

I'm 63 never had any good friends well at least I got my best friend but she's busy being a single mom & working...on government disability bring told by others that they know what's best for me people making assumptions about even though it's obvious they don't know me or know anything about me.....I've even gone to church before where they either told me that thier god is the ONLY way to be saved or they would just go into some new aged type shit.....never had a girlfriend in fact I was married but she was mentally abusive and bipolar a cutter & controlling but of course I never had the balls to say no I guess I was too lonely....I'm sick of the mental health shit...im not even allowed to have a cat or small dog in my apartment...& no volunteering with cats of dogs is not the same as one living with you in your apartment...I'm sorry for being like this...I'm not suicidal...I'm against that...but I can't even afford an escort lol or a sex worker....& no online stuff is total bullshit...it's dangerous..im.so lonely....at work it's only young guys working there & young women (who have partners of course)....I'm so tired....I guess I'll have to buy a cheap Chromebook when I get paid from my part time job this week (I'm allowed to earn a certain amount of money being on disability)...& watch porn since that's all I got lol

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You got the money back

Sep 15, 2022 at 7:07am

That's OK.
Who needs Jack Kerouac
Any way?

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Oh dear..

Sep 15, 2022 at 9:45am

Please try to change your thinking pattern.. life is not out to get you, love. Everything will be okay and you don't have to pay for sex. Just go on a hookup app. There is someone for everyone even if it doesn't end up in a relationship. Best of luck to you

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Anonymous

Sep 15, 2022 at 12:32pm

Please stop whining like you're a teenager/early 20's person. You are clearly anything but that and yet you think you have some kind of right to complain about stuff that no one but yourself has responsibility for.

I'm 67 and most people don't like me. To that I say - so bloody what?

You really need to find yourself somehow. No one is more responsible for your sad, sick state than you. Yet it's not the end of the world, far from it.

In all truth there are probably people out there some that you already might know that can start you on your way. Or at least point you in the right direction.

In case you are truly desperate, phone or try to get in contact with Joey Shithead from the punk band DOA - he is in politics (green) now and should be up for giving you a bit of sage advice(he's a very smart man).

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You should...

Sep 15, 2022 at 2:20pm

... consider suing the Government for more support. Canada is party to a number of international conventions concerning disabled people, and at common law the duty of maintenance of disabled people falls on natural parents, and, in default of that, the Crown, as parens patria, or that is one argument to be made.

The BC Government has a calculator online that , if you put in the PWD annual income (about $16,300) you get a report that says you are short by $852 a month. $272 of the expenses are "basic tax" so exclude that, and you're still short by $580, according to the Government's own estimation.

The problem, of course is, let's say that the ~100k (not exact) ppl on disability all got $600 more per month. That is $720,000,000 in new spending, and it would only be meaningful if adjusted for inflation.

I would really like to see the Government argue in court that the Shelter rate is fine, because it's acceptable to segregate disabled people in social housing intended for disabled people.

And their calculator is also probably out of date, not adjusted for inflation, etc. etc.

You have in BC and Canada a lot of people who talk about equality, etc. but at the end of the day, they are content to make six figures to be a Assistant Deputy Minister of Disabled People while Disabled people can't even afford the basic necessities of life. Of course, the ADM could not POSSIBLY subsist on less than six figures pa. The ADM will, of course, write reports about how the welfare rate is "just fine."

It's even worse if you consider how disabled people are denied their own fee simple estates in land, which is a service the Province provides to the public. "We build a ramp to the land title office, but, no, you dont actually get a land title, lol, those are for able bodied people!"

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Whoa

Sep 15, 2022 at 6:16pm

So much going on here. Definitely the disability rates and regulations need a serious overhaul. But I’m going to focus only on you for now…clearly you’ve got some issues happening. Assuming that you have a right to have sex with a female is a big one, because no one has a “right” to have sex with another person simply because they exist and they want it. So get that notion out of your head immediately. Many people can’t find someone to have sex with and that’s just the way it is in nature. Assuming that you’re being denied this because you’re disabled is just wrong. I’m not saying it’s a good thing, just that it’s a basic reality and you’d best understand that. As for the rest of your rant I’ll just say that I’m sorry that your life seems so miserable. You’re not alone in that. But you obviously have the ability to access the internet and you do have a job and a place to live. Therefore I suggest that you start with acknowledging and appreciating what you do have instead of only focusing on what you don’t. You might be surprised at how your mindset changes once you do that.

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Pickle Relish Boom Boom

Sep 15, 2022 at 6:51pm

@Oh dear.., there is no hookup app, especially here in Vancouver, the chances of single men here in Vancouver particularly middle -aged ones who are of average looks are almost slim....you have a better chance of hooking up in the Antarctic than here in Vancouver...it's unrealistic, the OP needs to tell himself every day that he's worthy & needs to put that thinking into action.....not have unrealistic thoughts that one can just go onto a hookup app & hookup with someone here in Vancouver (besides it's just usually men on these sites anyways not women)

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Anonymous

Sep 21, 2022 at 7:38pm

op sounds depressed and this colors their worldview i hope they get some help, maybe some group therapy would be useful to just talk things out and meet other people with similar issues.

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