Mourning

I should know it’s okay to cry, to be upset and yet deep down I don’t. I’m embarrassed. I try to hold my breath, distract, but the tears won’t stop. If I don’t fight them at least they won’t show as much. Let them slip down quietly. I’m shaking and I can’t steady myself. Breathe. Slow the breaths. Think of ducks. It’s not working. I wish I could turn this off until I have the safety to ugly cry in solitude.

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Wear sunglasses

Nov 20, 2022 at 5:04am

I've been in mourning for a bit and I've worn sunglasses the whole time. People will tease "why you wearing sunglasses inside at night?"
or what have you.. then it's also a conversation starter to redirect away from the pain.

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death or breakup

Nov 23, 2022 at 3:08pm

Feel your pain. But i was wondering about the use of thinking of ducks. Is there a story behind that?

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Ugly cry in solitude??

Dec 3, 2022 at 7:16pm

We are never alone.

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@deathorbreakup

Jan 24, 2023 at 10:34pm

There is a short story by Elizabeth Bowen called ‘Tears Idle Tears’.

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