I realized this Christmas that Christmas that I used to know, the entire idea and feeling of Christmas, no longer exists. It’s like a figment of my imagination: the cosy family dinner, the goodwill amongst my siblings, the cards that I used to create and send out, the cookies that I used to bake…. The flame has died for me. I would hustle all month to make everything happen. Now too cynical and exhausted. No one else picks up the slack. So Christmas doesn’t exist anymore. The holiday and the feelings no longer align. A new ritual to create perhaps?


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Tide goes up and tide goes down

Jan 4, 2023 at 1:57pm

This dispensation shift is obviously a low tide era for us on this Planet of the Apes. Nothing we can do about it tho and fear helps nothing. Just keep your head above water, keep the love alive and move smart.

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Jan 4, 2023 at 9:40pm

Look Christmas is over Thank God !
Yes Christmas sucks for many reasons this year but buck up Charlie the new year brings new hope and the lush of spring time to come.
I can smell the cherry blossoms already.
Ah ! Close your eyes and imagine.

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I dislike Christmas for 2 reasons first it was just as any..

Jan 5, 2023 at 3:23pm

At home drinking, codependency, fighting, lies and the ever greatest fake mask built when company came it was happy happy happy, and when shit went wrong there was at least a scapegoat. Second and most important NOT MY SAVIOR'S BIRTHDAY EVEN!!!

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You’re missing the whole idea

Jan 5, 2023 at 6:35pm

Christmas isn’t something that follows some fictional fantasy created by companies like hallmark. If you’re having a bad time with your family and friends then it’s got nothing to do with the time of year and everything to do with your family and friends. Putting unrealistic expectations onto a specific day to fulfill some romanticized idea of how families are supposed to be is a recipe for failure. If your family get togethers involve a lot of fighting and mayhem, I suspect that it’s not just happening at Christmas. My family isn’t perfect but somehow we always manage to get together without having drunken arguments or fights, so instead of blaming the occasion, maybe focus on the real issues, because that’s your actual problem.

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Jan 7, 2023 at 12:28am

I know exactly what you mean. It's like the old Christmas times were sucked into a vortex never to return. I hate to be a downer but it's like the older we get the more depressing, dull and grey life shows itself to be. This isn't the way I like to perceive things it just IS. I want to go back to the 90's. Shit, I'll even take 2011 or something. Seems like it all went downhill after that some how. Now I make it about my three year old, though. I want to make it magical for her even though it doesn't feel so for me. Anyways, happy New year. Maybe it will go back to the old ways some day, some how.

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