I just lost the love of my life because of our toxic drinking relationship. If either of us were strong enough to actually quit the drinking we likely would have been together forever. I'm truly crushed in my heart and soul and the only thing keeping me going is my kids. I know she loved me but she just grew to eventually become mean every time she got drunk and kick me out daily until i finally gave up and left. That cost me like 4k and now i am so stressed every day that it is literally at a maximum level of all time. I never ever in my wildest dreams thought we would truly break up...most people didn't. When i asked my kids their favorite part about my new place they said that she wasn't there. That further broke my heart and i'm trying to learn to accept that it's over but my insides are fighting it tooth and nail.