You can't do both. You can't hold back love and then refuse to let go. That is exactly what you're doing. You won't let go because you have genuine feelings. But withholding those feelings is not love, and I can't love someone who holds feelings back or withholds love. I'll never love a person who does that, especially when they hang no to me while holding those feelings from me. If you want to withhold your love, then there is no reason for holding on to me. You're hanging on to something that isn't happening because you are withholding love. I won't love you and no matter how much you hold on, I will eventually be with another who can and will love me the way I wished you would. That will happen no matter how hard you hang on. Holding on when you won't love is a waste of energy. I It's like refusing to water a plant while refusing to let someone who'd want that plant to water that plant. You're needlessly killing the plant that you wouldn't water anyways. Everyone and everything suffers needlessly. What is the point? How is that love? You hang on because you love, But what is the point of hanging on, then, when you won't allow that love at all? If you want my love, it's time to stop assuming that showing your feelings will backfire. Either show them to me or let go once and for all. Because as it stands, you are hanging on to nothing and whatever you think you will preserve will be long gone thanks to withholding your feelings, turning me off by refusing to let go as you do. So pick a lane.