Of my life it never really helped a side from hope when I knew she had written what I was reading. I still love her yes this true. But I love another now also and she is much mature but I wonder if we would have the powerful connection the previous and I had? I would not be able to be with someone who outlaw or forbid me to have platonic contact and if it was a problem other wise I would tell the wife/Gf the true and I would not keep her past tucked away. But I am in love twice here and I feel so awful why???