Humans were created to be social creatures living in families and village communities. Some species are solitary and they only get together once a year to breed and then they live solitary by themselves. But us Humans need coherent family and social community. This is becoming more and more scarce in today's scattered World, but it exists for those who seek it with a good heart. Seek and you will find, but know this: Real-deal peoples and community never put a price tag on life. Sure, family and community have to have resource$ to survive but $$ is never put before heart. It's called 'The Law of Reciprocity.' Give from a generous heart and generosity will flow around the circle to all including you.' OCM Sto:lo Salish love.

Listen to Eckhart Tolle. YouTube… he’s all over that stuff. Seriously—how to quiet your inner voice/critic.

Try going to a Latin country and learn to live life. I did, and I really learned to lighten up, sadly I had to come back to Canada and now I long for a more open culture that has more fun.

But I can relate to everything you wrote and have found tremendous relief I didn’t even know was possible with anti anxiety medication. I hope you can access some and see if that might answer a lot of this. Wishing you well and reminding to be kind to yourself neighbour x