Magnetoreception

I don’t want to leave. Vancouver is home. But on a Friday night, or any night for that matter, where am I? My apartment. Sitting in candlelight lost in thought. Embarrassingly the place is barely larger than my childhood bedroom growing up in the back country. There’s pressure to settle down in a small town. I have little life outside of my job here, my favourite haunts that I can no longer afford, friends that have moved away. The neighbourhoods are changing. More skyscrapers sprouting on the skyline. I skim through events hoping I’ll find something that sparks a feeling of life in me but nothing comes. I want to live and I don’t know why or how. Starting again somewhere else feels like defeat. My life isn’t a Hallmark movie. I don’t know where to go and I don’t want to leave, but it feels like there’s nothing here for me. There’s no place like home, anymore.

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Anonymous

Nov 27, 2023 at 12:27pm

By all means stay.

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neighbourhoods are changing

Nov 27, 2023 at 3:27pm

I like that line.

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Kinship

Nov 27, 2023 at 9:11pm

I think there are many of us feeling exactly this way. Decisions made by people in power a decade or two ago have destroyed this city for anyone but a privileged few. I’m stuck here now for many reasons, but if I was young and without those ties that bind, I’d leave immediately. This is a dying city.

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Hmmmm - is it Magnetoreception or Magnotoreplulsion?

Nov 27, 2023 at 9:54pm

Whatever it is, I feel for you. I got on the WestCoast Express train and got off at the last stop to the East in Mission Town. Much better here. Rents are more reasonable and so are the people.

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OP

Nov 28, 2023 at 9:39pm

I recently became curious about how Canadian geese, whales, salmon, and other living things know where to migrate and when it’s time to leave. Some theories believe it’s an ability to gauge when resources for survival change and are able to follow the earths magnetic lines like a natural gps to the next hospitable place to live. There’s speculation humans lack this ability. But consider any nomad or backpacker and you’ll find there are routes almost intuitively followed. Yet in regards to Vancouver I lack the ability to know where is next. Maybe 6 feet under or dust.

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Phaedra

Dec 1, 2023 at 12:23pm

Get an e-bike with a decent range.

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