Not what I expected

The weird thing is that even though they treated me like garbage for a long time, I don’t hate them or wish them harm. I thought that I would enjoy treating them the same way they treated me, but I don’t. What I feel now is pity. I have no desire to hurt them, and it pains me to think that maybe I have. But after so many years of being treated like an option and not being valued, I made a choice in favour of myself, and I will continue to do that from now on.

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Mar 15, 2024 at 10:07am

Who are these people? Work colleagues? Family members? Friends?

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Yes !

Mar 15, 2024 at 12:06pm

and much thanks. I needed to hear your heart-call today.

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Anonymous

Mar 19, 2024 at 9:26pm

You say you did to them what they did to you. Well if whatever they did to you hurt you wouldn't that mean you not only wished but did them harm ? Did you communicate how you felt about whatever happened ? To me you are no better then they are if you did the same to them. I think that's why most of the population is so jaded .

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@anonymous

Mar 20, 2024 at 9:41pm

Not exactly. What I meant was that I just stopped talking. I stopped responding. They know why because I told them straight up the last time we were in the same place, and I sent them a few texts afterwards making my feelings perfectly clear. But they never ever were completely straight with me and they were always deceptive and unwilling to explain their true intentions. So I gave up, and when they reached out again I ignored them. I don’t know if that hurt them or not, but even though they treated me with so much disrespect so many times, and in spite of some of the truly awful things they said and did to me, I still feel badly thinking that I might have hurt them. I’m not like them at all you see; I can’t hurt someone and not feel badly. However, the treatment they got from me this time was well and truly deserved, even though it wasn’t how I wanted things to be with us. There just eventually comes a time when you must protect yourself, and that time came for me.

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