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I Hate Anti-vaxxers but I also hate militant mask wearers

I know it sounds contradictory but I hate anti vaxxers when they confront me in shops or even in the street for wearing a mask but I also find people who flinch when you stand near them even though you are wearing a mask also annoying and also people who jump on me to wear a mask even when I am taking it out of my pocket to put a mask on. Please don't make this pandemic even more unpleasant than it already is.

NSA

Relationships don’t do it for me anymore. Ever since I went through a horrible break up, I just don’t feel ready for commitment now. Sex is the only thing that I can be bothered with. It’s at the forefront of my mind. I’m not in any mood for history to repeat itself since the last thing I need is toxicity and drama so I’d much rather hook up with a decent fuck buddy wheres there’s no strings attached or drama of any kind. Don’t hold it against me. We all have preferences.

Sick of The Apps

The pandemic has forced people to stay apart. Not gather. So like everyone else, I went online. Been doing it for 18 months now. And I’m sick of it. I have logged out of The Apps. Don’t care about the Likes. Don’t get anything out of looking at people’s uploads anymore. I’ve spent more time in the forest, by the water, cooking, at the farms. Sunrises and sunsets give me bliss amd peace. Crickets chirping in the night. While I feel uncertain about what the fall and winter may bring, I will do my best to not hold my phone through another round of the pandemic. It was a good crutch but it has been ultimately unsatisfying.

Cheerleader

I pray that one day I have a person in my life who lifts me up and helps me feel like I can do anything I set my mind to. I am (sometimes) capable of being my own cheerleader but when I hear about couples, friends, and family members who have that kind of pure, unadulterated support for each other — no seeds of doubt planted, no jealousy, no naysaying, no secret sabotage — I feel kinda wistful for what could have been if someone close to me had extended that encouragement to help me believe in myself. Of course if I find this kind of support one day I would want to send the same uplifting vibes right back at this person or people to help propel them to their goals. If you’re reading this and what I say lands with you, please consider listening with an open heart when people share their dreams with you and sending them encouragement through both your words and your energy. Thank you for reading and take good care of yourselves this fall.

Can't stop thinking about a person from my past

I'm engaged to someone else and haven't seen this person in like 8 years but we started talking a few months back and now they are all I can think about. We talk daily about everything. They are also in a relationship and say they want me just as bad... I have never been so tempted in my life...

Looking forward to fall

I have always been sad during the dog days of August. Everything closes, everyone goes on vacation and that is when I am loneliest. A few years ago I found school. Septembers became my favourite month. The month the world rebirths. This year, school is fractured and even with courses going forward, most schools are still more concerned with social political issues than student services. That's life. Life isn't always easy. My resolution this year is to enjoy September and October like I never have before. As it gets colder and darker I am going to be well prepared. With hot chocolate every morning, slippers, blankets, rain gear, etc. With the cold comes a knocking, I am going to face it head on. There are worse things in life as I have found and this fall I am looking forward to more than any in recent memory.

me myself and i

i feel so lonely, alone, isolated, stuck, trapped, empty, lost, unconnected, detached from this awfully painful world of suffering :( i hope that the Rapture is true because i am so looking forward to leaving this hellish world for heaven. It is hard for me to keep myself going, but i have no choice but to keep myself going. Whence we are born into this world, we are trapped to live in it until our day to leave it through death or Rapture. Thus, i call being born into this world a 'life sentence', because we have no choice but to live our lives as best as we are able, rich or poor, disabled or abled, depressed or happy, ... no matter our circumstances. if you can relate to this, please post a comment. God Bless you

Life at work

Been back at the office for two weeks now after having been laid off for so long. Generally, I get along very well with everyone. I’d say it’s a pretty cohesive environment. There’s a few who aren’t as friendly as the rest but that’s at the back of my mind. When I was younger, I had a hard time coping with stuff like this at work. Things were difficult but now I feel a lot more better and much wiser when it comes to dealing with people at work. I’m not here to become anyone’s best friend or score brownie points. I’m here to just do my job, get paid and clock out at the end of my shift. I think if you can walk into work without worrying about other people, then you will become very successful. Just my two cents.

I confess, I hate drunks

I don't drink. I can drink but I really don't like drunks. Most that drink, drink too much and then they start believing their own bullshit. Drunks usually reveal their true motivations, sometimes you find out in a night, sometimes it takes years. I knew a guy for a long time, he was the inspiration for me not wanting to drink. His drinking became a round the clock thing awhile ago so now there is no time if day I want to be around him. Last time I saw him he definitely slipped something into my drink when I was in the can. After tasting the additive I immediately told him I was tired and was going to walk home. He insisted that I finish the drink. I didn't and split for good. Drunks... They're the worst.

It's amazing how much difference a day can make.

I saw the woman I have been madly in love with for almost three years now this morning. She had recently told me she's not interested in me, which shattered my heart. When I saw her this morning I was about as sad a loser as a man can feel like. She didn't look that good and I didn't feel as good as I had everytime I'd seen her and talked with her in the past. I was sad and depressed all day until a stunning Thai woman named Vanessa walked past me around 4pm. I said hello and she gave me a smile that melted my heart. I asked her out for dinner but she was a little too shy so we talked awhile. We decided to meet for lunch tomorrow. I am now so fucking happy it's not funny. From a women who seems to like to smash my heart to a beautiful woman who wants to be my friend and is obviously attracted to me in mere hours! Wow, life can be so weird.

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