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This is 40

Well, almost. I'm 39, and I'm starting to feel it. I've been slowly losing hair since 25 or so sure... but now it grows in my nose and my ears. My eyebrows are getting longer. I get Botox for forehead wrinkles. My legs hurt often. I think I sat too much during covid and no matter how much I move now I can't seem to reverse the damage. Sex used to take (much) longer...and now I get 24 hours of multidirectional peeing after. Oh yeah, and I became allergic to almost every food I used to enjoy about 5 years ago and it hasn't improved. How the heck do people live into their 70s or 80s? I'm going to be a disaster.

Not a mind reader

If you’re not willing to be open, honest, and vulnerable, don’t expect others to read your mind. It takes guts to show your real intentions and feelings, and the guys who think that acting cool and casual, or that you don’t care if you’re with them or not, makes you manly are mistaken. It makes you seem afraid and it’s a complete turn off. If you genuinely want to be with someone, ffs tell them how you really feel! If you can’t do that then don’t feel sorry for yourself if that person leaves because they don’t think you really care.

Not really a Confession in the traditional sense

But a bit of commentary. As a cis lesbian I feel drag kings, lesbians, non binary folx 2 spirited people in the indigenous communities & those in the trans community are being thrown under the bus sort sort of speak what with the stuff regarding drag shows with drag queens, why is it always about drag queens? Where are the drag kings? The LGBTQ2s community is not just drag queens...... anyways my little commentary.

Is a small penis a dealbreaker?

I have a small penis. Very small. My girlfriend agrees it is small but says she can get over it. So here is what I want to know: is she lying? Any women who want to comment on this please do - if you met a guy you like and then discovered he was very small down there, would you break up with him? Would you be upset and disappointed?

Less is more

Social media is very hazardous to one's health. Used to be on Reddit, here, WhatsApp group chats... Cut it all out except IM for operational necessities (coordinating activities and like-so). Muuuch better. I'm an introvert, though. Maybe SM is great for extroverts - I'll never understand. But good to know where they all are. Not my tribe. If you're an introvert (outgoing or withdrawn, doesn't matter) and also an Aspie (iykyk), rethink your relationship with this stuff. Before it breaks your mind, and scrambles your emotions like so many eggs. Which will (eventually and inevitably) alter your body in ways you won't like. Walk away. Tend your own neurochemical garden. Stay clear of the afflicted "great unwashed". Delusional hysteria is contagious.

Working for a non-union employer

I've worked for a non-union employer for 20 years. They try to fire me and make me want to quit whenever they think they can, and there's not really anything I can do about, and keep the job. They fixed it so I can't work for another employer, and it's not worth trying to sue them. They dispense raises and promotions to favourites, although I produce more work, and the same or better work. If I had been in a union, they would have had to stop this crap 20 years ago.

Self Checkout Machines

I confess that these stupid self checkout machines at stores are a waste of time. People get sucked into thinking they're saving time but they aren't. They're actually keeping people out of work by using them. The stores are making massive profits off our backs including the additional fact we have to bag our own goods. I was at a store today and this poor woman was having difficulty with a machine and the lone cashier had to go over and help her twice with it while the line behind me grew longer. The woman complained out loud about the machine not working and it always seems to happen so I asked her why is she using it? She's putting people out of work by not going to the cashier who is alone because the store under staffs and forces people to go to the machines. I see the self checkouts take far more time than a cashier. Of course every idiot in line behind me ends up going to the self checkout while the lone cashier fends for themself. Garbage. Stand your ground people and boycott this crap by using a real cashier!! And some of you may wonder where the jobs are going.

Back the eff off

I wish people could read the room and follow my lead. Instead, they push, tirelessly and relentlessly: asking for photos of my family life, asking for my social channel handles, asking for me to check something at my home for them, asking where my parents were from. These are virtual strangers or coworkers who I maintain strict boundaries with. I don’t ask anything about them. I am only here to pay the bills, do my workout at the gym, etc. Here for my reason only. Not here for you in any way:shape/form. They look and ask about the brand of food on my desk. I never even go to their desk and don’t care about any of their food/consumption pattern etc. I have zero interest in you and you pushing will not ever make me interested in you. Leave the hermit crabs alone, even if they’re forced to work at the same office address as you. I asked one of them, after they waited to leave the office at the same time as me, Why are you so interested in me? They finally got the hint. It’s weird how when you are not interested in people, how it brings out this crazed desperation in them.

Nowhere safe

I entertained the idea of getting a place in northern BC to flee climate change. Boy, was I wrong: Fort St John entirely under wildfire evacuation alert. In May, not even June or July (summer). All those beautiful places like Penticton, Kamloops covered in smoke now, again in May. Doesn’t feel like escaping now is possible.

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